I get it all the time. People (who don’t get it) are always telling me that it’s crazy to be so obsessed with Nirvana. They go so far as to tell me, “Nivana’s dead.” I’ve got news. Nirvana will never die!
The funny thing is that the people telling me this actually listen to Nirvana. They just do it in moderation. Me, I am consumed by Nirvana. I believe they were the greatest band there ever was and that through their music, they live on.
Nirvana did to me what Elvis, the Beatles and the Rolling Stones did to the older generation. Although I was young, I was instantly mesmerized and changed forever. They were singing my song, my life song. I could so easily relate to each and every word of the lyrics and the music itself was like heaven to my ears. And…it still is!
Do you know what nirvana is? That’s ok, most people just think it’s a cool name for a band. It is a cool name for a band but partly because of the true meaning of the word. By definition, nirvana is a place of freedom that has no pain. Wow!
The funny thing is that the success of the group really took them by surprise. “Nevermind” was the big one. Kurt Cobain and bassist Krist Novoselic didn’t know how to handle it all, if you ask me. They were not only suddenly rock stars, they were the leaders of my generation, generation “X” and pretty much were responsible for kicking off the grunge movement and inventing alternative rock as we know it. That was huge.
I think I liked the songs that weren’t big hits even better than the ones that were like “On a Plain” and “Stay Away” which many overlook and go for “Heart Shaped Box” instead. There’s no song done by Nirvana that I don’t like. I would give anything to hear more. But…I never will.
I remember finding out about Kurt’s first overdose. It was on prescription drugs and alcohol. I wanted to shake him to his senses. I was young and many of my friends did the same stupid thing but it was different hearing that Kurt did it. He was my idol and I looked up to him.
Then the news came that he had overdosed on heroin. I couldn’t believe it. I felt sick. It was such as senseless loss it made me mad for quite some time and actually…it still does.
The band was great. Kurt was great. I think that perhaps, he was too great for his own good. I think he just wasn’t prepared for all that would go with how fast the band got popular and for what it meant to the generation. That’s a lot to live up to.
When I listen to Nirvana, which I do most every day. I think about Kurt and what brought him to stardom…and what brought him to his knees and eventually, his demise. But he lives on through the music. Nirvana lives on. Nirvana will never die.